up shit creek

cs and i have hit a speed wobble, well its more like one of those speed bumps at the airport that slightly resemble a mountain that you take too fast in your vespa and next thing those biscuit tires aren't handling...

anyhooo i am not sure there is a way back or forward or any which way out to make this all better again. i don't know how i have mammothly fucked everything up and not even sure how we have any of the ideas that we seem to have confirmed in our heads.

this day has been disastrous since i opened my eyes to the blaring news screamed at me by the alarm, the weather was shit so canceled the waterskii arrangements - stupid raining fog, cs woke up in the foulest of moods - the computer to finish all the work that had to be done before plan b was initiated funked out and destroyed the schedule and since then we haven't had a meaningful thing to exchange with each other... i have lied to tj who's braai we were attending in the forest that my evil boss has called me in to work on a public holiday and all in the hope that there would be light at the end of what has become a week long gloomy tunnel...

now i am sitting in a strangers flat, gathered my stuff to make it seem as if i never existed and feel like the rug has been pulled out from under me and somehow i am the genius who did all the pulling?